for Lisa

from hazel 
for Lisa ...
...... today was ...

 How I wish that everything that happened to me was just a nightmare, but unfortunately not! How I wish I could go back in time and not get into our father's car and play with our stepmother's lipsticks in it.... How I screamed and cried when I landed in Brazil, God only knows how much I hate this country, these people who have hurt me to this day... How I wish I had helped you take care of our father until the end How I wish I had had a normal childhood I wish I had had life experiences at the right age like any girl.... As I don't like to sleep, because when I sleep I see those horrible scenes of abuse and mistreatment I really want to disappear but I have a good reason not to disappear because my son is everything to me and he deserves the best from me .. I was very happy when I made contact with you, but only God knows how much I just want to leave this country and start my life over again... but it seems so difficult but I will not give up because God will help me to keep standing.. kisses from little hazel

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